I have a lot to say right now.

I’m trying to think of the right words as I sit here and dictate trying to process what turned into a really strange day.

First off, if you’re the only one who’s not drinking alcohol and your around a group of people drinking it’s always a challenge.

There’s some people who drink and nothing really changes in them.

When I used to drink I was one of those people. What you see is what you get sober, what you see is what you get drunk. So that’s basically the reason why I stopped drinking. I thought to myself, why do I need to put this stuff in my body that always leaves me feeling lousy the next day just to really be exactly who I was before but maybe a little more relaxed in the beginning of the drinking.

Then there’s people who totally change their entire personality changes and they just go crazy on alcohol. Alcohol has that effect. I can write about alcohol all night, but this post really has nothing to do with alcohol. It has to do with women and men.

Men like systems, they want systems to meet women.

Women want rules to meet men. Women obey the rules and men obey the systems and the two of us will get together. It’s also fucking weird.

I’m sorry, but it’s all so damn strange to me.

We’re human beings, we’re not systems at all and we’re not rules, because what works for one isn’t going to work for another and what system they use on one may not attract another, but yet we’re constantly looking for systems and rules that we can live by when in reality isn’t life just living?

Isn’t life just flying by the seat of your pants and figuring it out as it pops up?

I’m starting to think the whole human race is nuts, I really am.

We all want so many different things and we’re all trying to get different things out of each other and we’re all hoping to find love and we’re hoping this system works or this set of rules works. But we’re all just people, humans, having the human experience for, well, maybe the first time as our own bodies.

People come to me for answers and then I get judged because I’m the expert.

People wonder if the guy on the podcast is the exact guy they’re going to meet at a party.

I get asked all the time, what do I want and who am I? Who are you really?

I’m just me at that moment, whether you like me or not. I’m just me in a moment of time.

But men and women, we’re just so different in so many ways, the way we feel, the way we process things, the way women drink — god, women drink alcohol and they just change so much, they get so emotional. Men drink and sometimes they become assholes.

We’re all so different.

But who are we? Only you can answer that.