As I was driving into my garage today, I had a gruesome thought.

What if today was the last day of my life?  

I took a deep breath as I got out of my car, and thought to myself, that would be awful. If today was the last day of my life, I’d be really upset.

But then again, would I?

You see, when we die, we really don’t die and say to ourselves, I’m going to be upset. Sure we might go through a process. It might take a little while for us to die, if you’ve got some type of terminal disease.

Most of the time we just die.

We don’t even know when the last day of our lives is, and all of a sudden it’s over.

The thought of it makes us super sad. This could be the last day of our lives. The thought consumes us. We think to ourselves, I’m never going to see my kid again.  

I’m never going on that trip I wanted to go on.  

I never, well, we can keep saying I never, for a long time.

You see we never know when the last day of our lives is going to be.

We have no idea.

I was playing one of those “What If” games with a friend. He said, what if you could know the last day of your life, would you want to know?

I thought for a second, would I want to know what my termination date was?

The answer is no.

The reason is because I don’t really want to know. I don’t want to know if I have five years left, 10 years left, 20 years left, 30 years left, or even lucky enough to have 40 years left.

I don’t just don’t want to know. I think it’s probably not healthy to know. I think one of the greatest things is not knowing.

Not knowing how much time you have left. This is what I want to get to today.

Today is the only day that you can control your actions. Where you are, what you are doing. This is all you can control.

This is the only thing you can control, your day-to-day life.

So start living the stuff you can control.

You can’t control your termination day. You can’t control where you’re going to go, how you’re going to go out.

The only thing you can control is your living. What you do. How you participate in life. So you live the amazing life you’ve been given.

It’s a little bit of a wake up call to some of you.

I totally forgot that I did this post.

A lot of the times, I’ll get an idea and I will dictate it and then forget about it five minutes later. That’s how my mind works. It always has. It goes on to the next thing.

The night I dictated this, I got a massage.

After my massage, I was hungry.

So around 11.00 o’clock at night, I started eating my daughter’s cheese. They are these dry cheese squares. Extremely dry. They’re dehydrated. They get a little fragmented when you eat them.

I took a bite of cheese and all of a sudden, the cheese got stuck in my throat and I could not breathe.

I decided not to panic and I figured I would drink some water.

I tried to drink water. The water wouldn’t go down. embrace-life

Over the next 10 minutes, I was trying to dislodge this piece of cheese from my throat and thinking how do I perform the Heimlich on myself.

I’m trying not to panic.

The recording of the football game was on in the background. Cheese was lodged in my throat and I was trying to spit it up as much as I possibly could.

I finally got it clear. But the bottom line is I may not have.

The next morning I got my email and saw that I had just dictated this post about the last day of my life. That night I was battling to keep breathing.

Life is really strange.

I always believed that the thoughts you think about, you bring about.

If I brought this, is this a lesson for me? Was it something I needed to be shown?

I need to appreciate my life more? Do I need to be kinder, more gentle?

I don’t know. Pretty interesting. We’ll see.